lucky

lately i've been realizing how lucky i am.

i have two jobs. sure, it means i work pretty much every day of my life, and im always tired, but come on. two jobs. so many people don't even have one. one of these jobs is being a live in director at a group home. yes, with crazy people. but this means that life is never dull, and that i always have a story to tell. the girls that work with me are some of my best friends. and doing this job allows me to live rent free, which is why im able to pursue a real passion of mine; food. which brings me to my other job. i was working as a server in a restaurant downtown and randomly told the chef one day that i was interested in working in the kitchen and that i was pursuing culinary school. he said, sure come work in the kitchen. i said i loved to bake and that eventually i'd like to be a pastry chef or maybe own a bakery or something like that down the line. he said okay, you can make all the desserts. i've burnt several of those desserts, burnt myself, peeled off the tip of my finger, made huge messes, and melted a stack of to go boxes with a blowtorch. among other things. and chef responds by giving me more hours. everyone works their asses off, they're always supportive, super friendly, and i actually love going to work. imagine that.

i also have amazing friends, on both coasts. what can be said about people who have seen you through everything, and you can still rely on even from 3000 miles away? and what can you say about being surrounded everyday by people who go out of their way to show they love you even when you're bitchy, grumpy, farting, making bad jokes, being too inappropriate for life, and the list goes on..

and last, family. ahh the ever taboo topic for me. im sure future blog posts will explore the never ending conflict i have with my family. but i can say this. even though some have caused considerable pain, many haven't. they have let me be me and have been there when i needed them. and i hope in the future i can do the same for them.

im sure this blog is going to be filled with many posts about rants, things that piss me off, crazy people, and the general dumbassness of the world that i seem to encounter on a daily basis. and im sure many of those blogs are going to be written just the way i speak-dripping with sarcasm. but sometimes, it's nice to take a step back and look at all the good we're surrounded by. so for today at least, im grateful.

damn kids. actually...damn parents!

i went to dinner the other day, nice restaurant, had a grreeaatt dinner, great company, good wine, all the makings of a lovely evening...

except..there was this kid that kept whining and crying. so it's mother thought it would be a great idea to walk the baby AROUND THE RESTAURANT, and let it crawl ALL OVER THE STAIRS.

ugh...

this is one of my hugest pet peeves. luckily we were sitting far enough away on this particular evening that it wasn't too bothersome. but seriously. what person wants you to pace by them thirty five times with your drooling whiny baby as they're trying to enjoy their steak au poivre?? (which by the way was phenomenal). and as a person who has waited tables many times throughout her life, i can assure you that its incredibly annoying as well as dangerous to have ankle biters roaming the aisles, trying to touch you, playing with chopsticks, and dumping shit all over the place.

i used to work for this guy who used to tell us that we needed to be nice to the people with kids because everyone deserves to go out for a nice meal and receive good service. and you know what? he's right. everyone does deserve to be able to go out for a nice meal and receive good service. unfortunately when your kid is screaming in the middle of the restaurant, NO ONE around you is enjoying their meal. they are also probably not receiving good service, because the server is probably busy trying to get you crackers or crayons to help you shut your kid up. crackers or crayons, i might add, that you asked for as if the world would end if you didnt get them RIGHT AWAY, and will probably eventually end up crushed and on the floor. and you will not pick them up of course. no need to be considerate when you have a baby! after all, the world revolves around you, right?

i remember if my brother or i would ever misbehave in a restaurant, my parents would take us out of there immediately. we would have to stay outside or in the car until everyone else had finished. we learned quickly that going out was a priviledge, and that if we wanted to be included, that we had to act accordingly. uh, why do people not still know this?!??

perhaps jonathan swift was on the right track. but until we can start eating babies, how about you just leave them at home? because at the end of the day, i'd like to enjoy my overpriced glass of sonoma cutrer in freakin' peace. thanks.

are you having a 'been there, done them' existential crisis?

why yes, carrie bradshaw, i am.

i need a real man in my life. no not just a guy, i mean, you know a MAN, a rough, pin your arms back, make you sweat, up against the wall, rug burns, everything is foreplay, smack your ass kind of man. i need to feel the heat, slippery skin, out of breath, needing to please, rush of adrenaline, collapse from the sweetness, wake up in the middle of the night because you just can't wait any longer to do it all over again.

no, not sex. that's just too easy. but passion, now that, i crave.

sucked in.

having a blog is what the cool kids are doing. which is why i had convinced myself not to have one. i remember old school xanga. not too many people were doing it; it was like a little secret world in which to share your thoughts and talk shit about people behind their backs. awesome right? it's different now, nothing is secret, we have to update our facebook statuses everytime we take a shit (which i just did). so what's the point of a blog, i ask myself. it's unnecessary, waste of time, who cares, don't jump on the bandwagon, don't get a blog, DON'T get a blog!!!

i got a blog.

because really, i always feel so much lighter when i'm writing, and plus my life is FASCINATING. who would NOT want to read about my life daily?!? i mean..just today, i went to trader joe's, bought an arugula plant, and went out to dinner. whoa. throw in a lemonade and it would be a party.

so get ready, dear readers (if you exist). rest assured that the murky cloud surrounding your mundane lives will be lifted now that i have rejoined the blogging world. if you have any doubt, please refer to the paragraph above. arugula plant and dinner! see?