lucky

lately i've been realizing how lucky i am.

i have two jobs. sure, it means i work pretty much every day of my life, and im always tired, but come on. two jobs. so many people don't even have one. one of these jobs is being a live in director at a group home. yes, with crazy people. but this means that life is never dull, and that i always have a story to tell. the girls that work with me are some of my best friends. and doing this job allows me to live rent free, which is why im able to pursue a real passion of mine; food. which brings me to my other job. i was working as a server in a restaurant downtown and randomly told the chef one day that i was interested in working in the kitchen and that i was pursuing culinary school. he said, sure come work in the kitchen. i said i loved to bake and that eventually i'd like to be a pastry chef or maybe own a bakery or something like that down the line. he said okay, you can make all the desserts. i've burnt several of those desserts, burnt myself, peeled off the tip of my finger, made huge messes, and melted a stack of to go boxes with a blowtorch. among other things. and chef responds by giving me more hours. everyone works their asses off, they're always supportive, super friendly, and i actually love going to work. imagine that.

i also have amazing friends, on both coasts. what can be said about people who have seen you through everything, and you can still rely on even from 3000 miles away? and what can you say about being surrounded everyday by people who go out of their way to show they love you even when you're bitchy, grumpy, farting, making bad jokes, being too inappropriate for life, and the list goes on..

and last, family. ahh the ever taboo topic for me. im sure future blog posts will explore the never ending conflict i have with my family. but i can say this. even though some have caused considerable pain, many haven't. they have let me be me and have been there when i needed them. and i hope in the future i can do the same for them.

im sure this blog is going to be filled with many posts about rants, things that piss me off, crazy people, and the general dumbassness of the world that i seem to encounter on a daily basis. and im sure many of those blogs are going to be written just the way i speak-dripping with sarcasm. but sometimes, it's nice to take a step back and look at all the good we're surrounded by. so for today at least, im grateful.