wtf?!

one of the other staff members in my house had some pet hamsters in her room. i got a text from her yesterday saying that she arrived home to find her door unlocked, and two of the hamsters dead, and one that looked like it had gotten it's head ripped off. sure, maybe she forgot to lock her door. mayyybe someone didn't break in. but regardless of how they got into the room, someone had to have done this. right??

now, i know these people are crazy. i knew taking this job that there were risks to living and working with people who were mentally ill. but for the most part, i've only had to deal with behavioral issues-defiance/disorganization/laziness, stuff that like. but this is just disgusting! i am SO pissed. and disturbed. i feel awful that my friend had to come home and find her hamsters dead. and im also terrified that something could potentially happen to bella. i usually leave my window cracked bc my room gets pretty stuffy (and i leave my keys at home or at work or at someone else's house all the time), but now i seal them up tight! and i hate it. i don't want to feel uncomfortable in my own house. i swear to god (if you believe in god), that if anyone EVER lays a finger on her i will fucking KILL them. i never think of myself as a violent person, i've never even hit someone (well except that guy in the bar one time who thought he should keep touching me even though i told him not to- yeah, how'd ya like that bloody nose jackass!), but i would seriously lose my shit if anyone ever touched her. and that bothers me a little too. but, actually, just very little.

so i don't know what to do here. i want to just gather everyone and make them sit there until someone cracks. and after that i want to get them sent to the hospital. forever.